This is what I am truly trying to do but it’s scary . For the first time in my life in a long time I am alone . No kids , no husband. It’s like that was my only identity. Now I am trying to discover who I am . But the past is really haunting me so much that I don’t sleep or eat at times . I know that’s just depression knocking on my door 🚪. I am doing my best to keep that door closed .

It’s so easy to say just not easy to do . I feel when I lost my sister I lost myself for real. All this time has went by and I still feel like I just lost my sister . I know she would want me to be happy but that’s just too hard to really do without the one person I know loved me UNCONDITIONALLY!

Hello all I hope your having a bless afternoon this Tuesday . I am back on road and writing this manuscript . Thought I would share the current events in my crazy life .

This weekend was so relaxing because I spent it with my daughters . They mean the 🌎 world to me . My babygirl took me to get pampered .

During this time I was able to talk to my babygirl about some of the struggles I am having moving pass the past . She listens so well but I still don’t feel support like I need from my family . It’s like everyone just wants to move past it. I wish it was that easy for me !

People don’t understand that PTSD loves to hold onto anything and everything bad. So it’s easier said then done for me .

Finally after being off my meds for 2 weeks I got my meds. I have to say I am thankful I did get them because waking Up with these migraines is so rough . I am happy to say I woke up today no migraine .