Ever felt like there was a big void in your life ? I DO ALOT and at times it seems like I am drowning in life and can’t breathe . My chest is heavy at times and my spirit just feels smothered .

What do I do to escape this feeling ? No one has that answer and I realize that but I can always hope and pray that this void , numbness , and drowning feeling will go away .

My Spirit is tired and exhausted from all the stresses of this life . I know I treat people right and in return I just get hurt in some way or fashion I once again lose myself .

After going through all that I have been thru with all the abuse I have had in the past I just knew that the pain was over . Like I had paid with my pain and tears long enough but I am always wrong because pain is always hiding waiting for me to try to take a breath. I know we are all destined to be here but I am also sure that life is NOT supposed to feel like a plastic bag is over my face stealing every breath I take .

I just don’t have the ability to fake a feeling. Maybe I could when I was younger I can’t remember. Today as a Grown Woman it’s just not possible . So many times in my life events take place and I can’t give people the reaction they are wanting from me . I mean is that confusing for everyone to understand?

If I do not feel the way people want me to feel then I am in the wrong in everyone else’s mind . As for me I feel like I am justified in my feelings just like everyone else is . Mine are no more or less important then the next person but their mine .

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