Friend is just not a word I use loosely . As you might have read in my earlier blog. I feel that a friendship is another form of relationship . If you have a friend you have a type of love for them and NO love is real if it’s not unconditional. Which means you accept someone for their good and bad because we all know or should know that no one is perfect .
I have been blessed to have the same friend for 25years. Don’t get me wrong we have had a spat or two and worked it out but we are always there for each other .Me and her have been through alot together . Raising our kids and making ends meet. Wasn’t easy for us at all we had to hussle our asses off and always watch each others back.
We have moved away from each other and still ended up right back in each others backyard. Like seriously because my cabin is on her land. I do plan on moving it one day because I don’t wanna stay in Georgia . All the abuse that has happened to me was in Georgia and I feel like I can breathe better once I cross the state line. It’s like the air feels better and the ball of fire I carry in my chest daily just slowly goes away . I think maybe she will move one day also but it’s alittle more difficult for her because she owns land and still has family here but either way we will always stay in each others life.
We have only had one fight and that was after 25 years of friendship and on a day that my PTSD was at it’s peak and I snapped . It was about something so stupid at the moment but it was about my dog and I love my She-ra so much I just snapped. I felt bad afterwards for the actions I took but not the words I spoke because I feel like if I warn people that I am feeling the fire and I can feel myself fixing to snap and you still persue me to argue then that person knows whats coming. She knows me and we got past that Thank God.
Our kids are just that like our kids . Men don’t seem to stick around but it’s ok because we have leaned along time ago that we can make it with or without a man and we do just that.
I can honestly say she is my only REAL FRIEND of the same sex cause I do have some other friends that are male and they seem to always be there for me when I let them. It’s crazy cause the only one I can really tolerate is my best friend.
At times I just feel the need o shut everyone out because I feel either lost , sad , or on edge .
I do thank god for the best friend that he has given me . She is a bit goofy , very outspoken, she throws people off with the stuff she says, she is beautiful in all her own ways .
Perfectly Imperfect 