Long Nights with Night terrors

I have the longest nights because I have night terrors when I fall asleep and it’s dark outside , so I have trained myself to stay up through the dark and only sleep during the daylight.For people that aren’t familiar with night terrors they aren’t the same as nightmares. Night terrors are so much worse atleast mine are. It’s as if the demons are coming out to play and I have no control over them until I am able to wake myself up out of them. In my night terrors I can feel ,smell, and hear the people that have hurt me and it’s like it is happening all over again. They say oh just move past your tragedy and forget it . Well Unfortunately it doesn’t work like that for me. I would love to know what it is like to beable to forget all these bad things that have taken over my life. After night terrors my body is worn out for days. I can feel the people that have hurt me and it’s as if they are right there. The men that violated me as a child might think they got away with it and I was just another victim of theirs, but I am NO LONGER A VICTIM BUT A SURVIVOR! I understand what people that have been abused and mistreated feel like. Alot of people will never be okay with accepting the inner and outter scars that people have put on them or in them . I refuse to be ashamed of something I had no control over. I want to beable to talk to people that are going through things like I have and let them see that WE CAN MAKE IT.